I am very sure a lot of you can feel what I am feeling right now. 1st of January every year brings a lot of enthusiasm, wishlists, dreams, determinations and a big promise for a brighter future. We all say deterministically what all we will do and what all we will stop doing from this fresh year. I know, I know the new year resolutions are not the charm anymore, but put your hand on your heart and tell me that you don’t secretly make yourself promises of everything you want to be from this new year, and everything that you want to stop being now!
But what about the Decembers? How does that look like? Well, If I have to be really honest, Decembers are really the reflection of every effort you put in the whole year. And also, every procrastination you got enslaved to!
Today is December 16th. And you know what am I feeling? I am just looking back the whole year, unable to clearly see everything I achieved this year but also, not able to look past everything I promised myself I will do but I didn’t. Every plans I made only to not implement them. Did I fail then? Not really! There was really a lot that I did right but you know how much what we didn’t get stings! Way more than the pleasure of what we got.
And that is why, please, do not sit with yourself blaming yourself for everything you did not do, you did not get, you did not achieve! If you really want to do this, then do it right. Sit with yourself with both achievements and failures. I am pretty sure you laughed more than you cried, won more than you lost and lived healthily more than the guilty cheat days. Well, all I am asking for you to do is to be fair with yourself.
You know what else you should do? Take a deep breath, and forget who you are and what you did till now in your life and forget every single adjective that you have been using for yourself! Whatever it is! Achiever, lazy, planner-head, punctual, never-on-time, hater, lover – everything. Just stop! And do not identify as anything. Don’t force yourself to fit any boxes, fit any space, be any particular thing. Just be! Just exist for a moment and open your mind and let yourself explore everything that you can do and that you can be.
Plans are important. Yes! They give you a good structure. They tell you exactly how to achieve what you want to achieve. But you know what, it’s really sad if you become what you always wanted to become because it took away your chance to be so much more. So, for once, just once, allow yourself to just exist and let life takeover and show you everything you can possibly be.
Sayonara!
